Getting past my insecurities by talking
As a person I am very insecure. I struggle to introduce myself to people I haven’t spoken to before and this something that has often left me feeling isolated. This is especially the case when going to development meetups where often I haven’t known anybody. In this situation I really struggle to introduce myself so the majority of people I have spoken to at events are those who I have either seen speak (so I can ask a question to start a conversation), those that introduce themselves or I have been introduced too.
I think part of this stems back to being bullied in high school, so much so that I changed schools at the beginning of year 9. This was a terrible experience and it was during this time I changed from being someone who would express his emotions to someone who kept them to myself. since then I have had to relearn how to not keep these feelings bottled up inside and to express myself better. This hasn’t really helped with my inner confidence at all, while outwardly I may come across as a confident person, I still have these deep down insecurities which leave me often feeling worried unnecessarily about things.
Where there is one place I am confident however is in my coding, since I was 9 years old learning BASIC on an Acorn I have loved to code and I have been confident in speaking to others about it. After changing school at the beginning…
